Asking the Universe

So here I am, asking..

No.

BEGGING, the universe to please slide the last few pieces of the puzzle that is my life, into place.

There are two somewhat large things I need to happen and I need them to happen as close together as possible.

As a result of these amazing things happening, I will be able to finally get my life exactly the way I want and need it. I will have no obligation to keep the ridiculously toxic HM in my life as either a HM or a friend. I will be able to cull a lot of other really crappy people too. It's going to be like a breath of fresh air.

Except until then, until the Universe delivers, I am stuck here. Whenever I am home I feel the need to lock myself in my room. It's tiring. Draining. Makes me exhausted and teary.

So please Universe, I trust you in all your infinite wisdom to lead me where I need to be, and bring the things I need to me. I promise in turn to be the best version of me I possibly can.

I'm sure this is designed to make me stronger, but it feels like it's making me weaker, so if you can, please hurry.