Second Round Wagon Breakdowns

I've been trawling through the round 1 forums like nobody's business and I see a common thread. Lots of people say that they went amazingly in their first round, but then the wheels fell off.

It worries me, because I can see that this could happen to me, really easily.

The thing is I am currently 47.7kgs, and that is UNDERWEIGHT for me, and I'm starting not to like the way my body looks because it is a bit too thin. I don't look like a skeletor yet but I definitely want to maintain from here if not gain 1 or 2kgs.

As a result, I have stopped counting calories. I've still been sticking to the main principles. 3 meals + 3 small snacks a day, but instead of figuring out calories I just make sure it's healthy.

Today, for example, my food intake looked like this:

Breakfast: 3/4 cup of Special K + 1/3 punnet of raspberries + 1/2 cup of rice milk AND 1 slice of Helga's Light Rye toasted with a smear of vegemite

Morning Tea: 2 multigrain rice cakes with a smear of plum jam + peppermint tea

Lunch: Salmon patty and salad with spinach, tomato, olives and capers.

Afternoon Tea: 2 tablespoons of hommus with 1/2 red capsicum cut into sticks AND 1 tablespoon of hommus on a multigrain rice cake + peppermint tea

Dinner: Stirfry from Crunchtime Cookbook

Evening snack: 1 multigrain rice cake with a smear of plum jam + INFINITE AMOUNTS of peppermint tea

Man I ate a lot of rice cakes today....

Now this menu is not unhealthy, but I found myself reaching for things I probably didn't need. Grazing. I didn't need the rice cake with hommus. I just still felt like eating. I didn't need the rice cake with jam after dinner either, but I still did it.

Grazing on healthy things when you have some weight to gain is one thing, but I worry about it spiralling out of control. Sure, it's rice cakes now, but how long until it's hot chocolates... and then actual chocolate, and then Pringles, doughnuts and McDonald's thickshakes? Damn... what I wouldn't give for a huge, frosty chocolate thickshake right now.

Excuse me while I indulge in some food porn...

I know the first rule. Don't keep it in the house, and I don't, and I live alone so it's only here if I let it be. After Christmas I threw away all the chocolate in the house, even the Bertie Beetles I had been carefully rationing since the Ballarat Show when I got a showbag. I'm still mourning the loss of those, but I knew after letting myself relax a little at Christmas, rationing them would probably not be happening. It would be all or nothing, so into the bin they went.

I'm looking forward to a refresher on Mish's mindset lessons to be honest. I feel I've forgotten a lot of the stuff that I thought was permanently ingrained. I guess the bad habits were around longer, and they are fighting to be recognised again, but screw them. The good habits made me feel so much better about myself than they did!

Going to try and ignore my constant cravings until pre-season when I can get an injection of Mish's tough love.

Time to JFDI... and think of this photo every time I drive past a MickyD's